The Last Letter

I could have easily accepted my death if I had never met you.

I want to see you lively and be happy. You are so alive and healthy, and there is so much life and time within you. I just want to see your smile, your happiness, your future filled with hope, what I never had and what I used to dream of.

People always die, but I am not afraid of death. I have lived my life and had my glass of wine. I have tasted loneliness and despair, and I have had people come into my life and drag me out of that somber darkness. I have seen hope, and, not just seen—hope has come to me, and brought all the wonderful things to me. I now know what it feels like to have a wish fulfilled, to have friends share my happiness and sadness, to have support by my side during my downturn of life, to not have to face everything by myself. I have learnt to hope, knowing that nice things can actually come true with the people I love; and I have learnt to love, for with love I would not have to be alone.

I have had a wonderful life. I took my share of happiness. What have I to regret now? I, I can’t complain. It’s already good enough. Everything is already good enough. But I no longer have a bright future and a passion for struggle, and my dream has been shattered.

I want to take a walk on the tree-lined path outside the school gate with you and even many times, just at noon every day. I want to have lunch and dinner with you in the canteen, do homework together, and laugh together. I want to do so many things with you. I want to stay with you longer. But this is impossible. The only thing left is a pile of dead ashes, while my heart is still burning. But, but… Oh, you don’t know. I could have swallowed my end only if I had not met you and had you in my life. I could have let go of my miserable life and happily leapt into that silent peace if I had not wanted a future with you. You, you have made things so difficult for me.

I may not be able to look at you silently anymore. You have grown up, but your heart is still so young, and so innocent. I want to tell you of all the virtues and pleasures that a human can have, and make sure that you grow up to be a fine, independent, and kind lady. I genuinely wanted to do these things for you, to keep you from loss and panic, to teach you to cherish yourself, to love your life.

Please remember my words. Remember that you breathe and eat and sleep not just to survive, but to live. You are to live a good life, a satisfying life, a life that you will not regret at your old age. You will live long and happy, and no loss shall strike you down; you will only know from your losses, to cherish what you have had, and what you still have. You will live in the way I am deprived, and I have dreamed.

You gave me the meaning of my ending life. I want to tell you that I love you.

To the hope the youth, the world, the life.

2022/10 by Patton

好吧，

初二的学长（学姐）写的十分优美，

我认为呢，可以升级一下词汇。

写的很好喔！

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